BigBlueDodge wrote:I will admit that I am very new to this CHL stuff. After many long years of inactivity, I finally decided to get my CHL. I've completed my coursework and am waiting on Austin to do their thing. Given the responsibility of holding a CHL, I've been fanatical about research and scouring the internet related to any/all matters of Texas CHL and I've discovered a disturbing trend. What I'm seeing is that the motivation for some getting a CHL is not primarily for protection. There is a certain amount of "macho'ness" that drives people to get their CHL. My first exposure to this was in my actual CHL class. The class was composed mainly of younger individuals (in their 20's). During introductions, the instructor asked everyone why they wanted a CHL, and the younger guys would say stuff like "becuase I just turned 21, or I just moved here and we weren't allowed to carry guns where I came from, etc". Few of them said they wanted their CHL for protection. Throughout the class I noticed that the younger guys questions were more centered around the equipment (which gun is the best, which ammo is the most destructive, what is the best brand of holster, where is best place to carry) and not so much around protection. During the breaks , they were proud of their handguns as they'd all group together and look at each others. The older folks questions were centered around the laws, and the responsibilities of owning a CHL. It was clear to me that a large portion of the young guys interest for getting their CHL was simply so they could carry their Desert Eagle or GLOCK on them. It was apparent that they got a kick out of the power of carrying a gun.
Well, that was my first experience to CHL, and I tried not to think much about it. Coming out of that class it was apparent to me that this is great responsibility of the CHL holder to become intimately aware of Texas CHL laws, so I read my "Texas Concealed Handgun Laws and Selected Statues" booklet two times, then set out on my quest of the internet to learn more. Even in forums like this I've read posts from people saying they carry two or three guns, with a couple of pocket knifes and one or two extra clips when they go out and I ask myself why? Our soldiers in Iraq don't carry that much stuff and they are in a war. What environment do we have in the US that could possible demand that much protection. From what I've read, a large majority of the reported CHL related disputes, the weapon is never fired, or only a couple of shots are fired. Given the high capacity magazines we have today, we can fit up to 14,15 shots in one magazine. I carry a 1911 that holds 7 shots, and I do not feel undergunned or feel a need to carry more than that. Again, my only explanation is that there is a power high that some get from carrying a gun, and the macho factor pops up. I find it rediculous now that people feel unsecure going to get mail from their mailbox now, where as 1 year ago they thought nothing of it. It's almost that owning a CHL make people more paranoid of their surroundings, even though their surroundings haven't changed. Magically, bad guys are now lurking everywhere.
I know that the majority of CHL owners are humble, law abiding citizens who get their CHL purely for personal protection only, but I have observed a disturbing number of individuals that appear to be getting a kick out of the power of carry a gun on them. It's almost like they are just waiting for a situation to occurr that they can use their firearm in, and this worries me. Because we all know that it only takes one or two incidents where a CHL holder screwed up to ruin it for the whole bunch.
At this point, no one will admit to themselves that they got their CHL because it made them feel powerful/macho to carry a gun. We are all convinced that we got it purely for personal protection. However, it doesn't take long to see the individuals who got it for power reasons, as their behaviors and actions will ultimately show.
I was 28 when I got my CHL (just over a year ago now). I had only owned a handgun for a few months, and only had owned rifles a couple of months longer than that. As evidenced in my early posts here on this forum, I was new to guns and other SD equipment, so I had a lot of questions and interests specifically in equipment, what it does, and effectiveness of particular calibers/guns/etc. I believe this is a natural thing to do with any kind of ownership. For example, someone who owns a new car tends to immediately research the vehicle, join car groups related to their vehicle, get into discussions online regarding the performance of this or that, options, add-ons, etc. It's a natural part of ownership.
As with anything else, younger people generally aren't as articulate in expressing their concerns and desires regarding carrying as those with more experience in life. Many haven't been faced with the realization of their own mortality and so "self-defense" isn't quite on the forefront of the reasoning as it is with those with more life experience. I do believe the reasoning is still there, but exists on a more primal level than conscious, so the expression of that desire is not clearly made.
As far as concern that someone is going to ruin it for the rest of us... This is a right we're talking about, not a privilege. In Texas, that right is limited and regulated, but is a right nonetheless - and is available to anyone who has not shown a history of irresponsibility or disregard for the law. I understand your concern, but if we cannot trust a law-abiding citizen to do the right thing, we make concealed carry a privilege, not a right.
From my personal experience, the realization of the social responsibility that comes with a CHL had a significant effect on my attitude and demeanor in everyday life. I was forced to reconsider the image that I convey to society in my actions. My demeanor while driving, interacting with others, and to people in general was all affected when I got my CHL. It is true that with great power comes great responsibility, and that point certainly made itself evident to me. I believe this applies to most people (especially younger folk), as I've seen numerous people on this forum express the same sentiments after getting their CHLs.
I understand your concerns, and they are certainly not completely unfounded. I am sure that there are some people who carry on a power trip (at least initially), but I believe life and social conventions have a way of changing that. People grow up, and responsibilities are realized. Someone who carries for that reason and makes it evident to others is going to be called out fairly quickly (socially or legally). Otherwise, a power trip that can't be expressed is going to lose its novelty quite quickly, and that person will either lose interest or come to a realization regarding the responsibility of carrying and come around to a proper understanding of what it means to carry.
In response to your other observations, it may appear that people become "afraid" of going anywhere because they believe that BG's are lurking around every corner, but I think the reality is that our eyes are more open to the harsh realities of human existence. No, there's not always someone hiding around every corner waiting to harm us, but there are people out there waiting to bad things to good people. We have no way of knowing where or when that is, so we prepare ourselves to be ready for that reality at all times. An outsider may see this as a constant paranoia keeping us on edge, and I've talked to many people that think that very thing. I know from personal experience that there are people out there waiting to harm, rape, and murder innocent people who are unaware and unprepared. I do my best to prepare for the possibility that someone may someday make me his target.
In my opinion, it is similar to defensive driving skills. If you've ever attended a defensive driving course, you were taught to keep your attention on the traffic, your vehicle, and what is going on around you. You are taught to anticipate hazards and avoid them before it becomes a critical issue, and to prepare yourself to evade a problem if it presents itself. You are also taught to act responsibly as a driver, to follow the law, and develop driving habits that minimize the risk of a collision and make the road a safer place to drive for everyone. Personal preparedness in self-defense falls along these same lines. We learn to be aware of our surroundings, anticipate hazards and have plans of action ready to respond to unexpected situations. I don't expect someone to try and rob or kill me while going about my daily activities, but I prepare myself for the possibility. To an outsider, this may look like a paranoia or sitting on edge waiting for trouble to come to me, but that's very far from the truth. I do my utmost to live in peace and avoid confrontation if at all possible.
As for your observations regarding equipment, whatever you are comfortable with is fine with me. I carry 2 handguns (a normal carry sidearm and a BUG), as well as extra magazines for each of them, a pocket knife, and a flashlight. I hope that I never have to use them at all, but I have learned in my life that things tend to go wrong at the worst possible time. While I don't expect my equipment to fail, I prepare myself for the possibility. With something so critical as a self-defense weapon, I believe it better to be prepared for a disaster that never happens than be unprepared for one that does unexpectedly. Machismo has nothing to do with what I carry. It is all about function and preparedness. As for the bulk, my primary carry gun (a Hi-Power) makes up most of that, with its extra mags on the opposite side of my pants - this actually makes it easier to carry, as the extra mags balance out the weight of the gun. The BUG (a Ruger LCP) and its extra mag are so small and light that I don't even notice them. Soldiers in Iraq certainly carry around much more weight than I do.
Also, welcome to the forum and to CHL. I look forward to future discussions. There's a lot of great folks on here, and you certainly can learn a lot from this group.